Cause it feels like hell and I just can't help but think... maybe loves not for me.

I understand that it may feel like love is not meant for you right now, but please remember that everyone experiences challenges and heartbreak in relationships. It's important to take time to heal and focus on yourself, but please don't give up on love entirely. Keep an open heart and mind, and don't be afraid to take chances and meet new people. Love will find its way to you when the time is right. Stay strong and have faith that better days are ahead.