so when I was 17 there was a girl I liked over the summer who liked me back, we were never official but it was close enough. after I turned 18 I started getting hate on social media so I just ignored my phone which meant that I also ghosted the girl. about 2 months later I realized what I had done. I am now 19 and I decided to see if this girl had any social media platforms and I found out that after that summer she got a boyfriend. meanwhile, I have been in a serious bout of depression because I have thought that I wronged her. Is it bad that I feel relieved, or should I feel grouchy that this girl should of told me that she had a boyfriend?
It's understandable that you may have mixed emotions about the situation. On one hand, you may feel relieved that she moved on because it may alleviate any guilt or pressure you were feeling for ghosting her. On the other hand, you might feel disappointed or frustrated that she didn't inform you about her new relationship.
It's important to keep in mind that relationships, especially those that haven't been officially defined, can be complex and fluid. While it would have been ideal for her to communicate her relationship status with you, it's also possible that she didn't feel the need to do so if you were no longer in contact.
Rather than dwelling on what could have been, it might be helpful to focus on understanding and learning from this experience. Reflect on how you can better handle situations in the future to avoid unintentionally hurting someone. Additionally, consider addressing your bout of depression by seeking support from friends, family, or a therapist.
Ultimately, the most important thing is to learn and grow from past experiences and treat others with empathy and respect in the future.