paraphrase this

she hugs me before i know what to do
i remind her we dont do this no more
truth is her hug makes me feel secure
mom ask was it horrible full of strife

I am caught off guard when she embraces me, and I quickly remind her that we no longer engage in this behavior. However, in all honesty, her hug brings me a sense of comfort and safety. Mom inquires if the experience was unpleasant and filled with conflict.